3.24.2009

dreamy

 

It was quite drab today but for a few short minutes light filled my studio long enough for me to take this photo. It's so dreamy.  I like that.
I have hopes for this project over here.  I won't mind if it's slow-going, in fact I prefer that we take it slow.  However slowly, I want us to get somewhere. It's so vague this somewhere but I know each of us have some sense of where that is within the geography of our own hearts.
--ashima  


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3.20.2009

call to prayer

 

my walk led me here
a post with ragged calls for peace
in writings i can't read
but completely understand
i can hear my desperate plea
and my quiet hope 
as the wind catches and unravels 
yet another thread

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3.17.2009

Studio Sessions


So the big news that I never did share, much to the confusion of my few but loyal readers, was that I had started what one friend suggested was the equivalent of a modern day salon.  In French, it means a large room meant to receive and entertain guests, a gathering of people, a private gathering of artists, conniseurs and intellectuals, like those exhibits in Paris when the expressionists was just busting out into the main scene in art with their seemingly vague and unintentional brush strokes.  It sounds more loftier than what I had planned but I like the idea of the gathering.  Last Fall, my long-time roommate and friend moved out and I turned one of the bedrooms into a studio and offered the stash of art supplies I've accumulated over the years for use by me and my friends.  Every week we gather for a few hours at my apartment and we work on, well, whatever. This week whatever is the last bits of winter knitting and the beginnings of our Spring Printmaking and Photography sessions.  Have a look here .

Nada is knitting a beautiful vibrant green scarf with a Malabrigo wool yarn. She is a natural in knitting. Watching her hands is mesmerizing. Amanda is taking photographs but her true interest these days is cooking and more specifically healthy cooking. See what's in the stove top. It's her amazing fritata. Mary is the expert knitter and by the looks of it will also be the expert printmaker.  Katy has been drawing.  She made an ingenious set of cards.  They sort of work like tarot cards except they are based on characters from literature.  She's given us readings which have been uncanny in its accuracy it borders on scary.

For spring we have ambitious plans for printmaking but we start with the simplest, those of potato prints. The potato prints turned out great. I've had these Lotta Jansdotter books that I've been collecting and I've been itching to try these projects for quite a while now because they look so easy but finished at the same time.  I like that we figure things out together. We simply followed the directions together. The important thing to note is that you do need some kind of a cushioned material so that the material gives in a bit to make better, clearer impressions.  Here, we used felt. My prints are the peppermint pinwheels and Mary made ones that look like a egg nests or bike tires.  We don't know what these will turn out to be and I'm excited to find out.  

More soon.  Really.

ashima

3.10.2009

How I feel these days

Love means to learn to look at yourself
The way one looks at distant things
For you are only one thing among many
And whoever sees that way heals his heart.
Without knowing it, from various ills---
A bird and a tree say to him: Friend

--Czelsaw Milosz








3.07.2009

Missing You, Missing Me













By popular demand, and by that I mean Lusso's Mom, I am writing back here in this space. She wrote me a sweet note that said she misses me. I miss her too and hope to see her soon. I do miss writing here. I miss a lot of things lately. I miss taking the train downtown to work. I miss the rhythmic chugging hiss of the tracks, the slow dance of people in trance on the train as they start their day. I miss reading the blog of my favorite artist Mav of port2port press so I splurged and bought this book above about a year long photography blog of mornings between two friends who live 3191 miles apart to try to reconnect to those mornings when I would start the day inspired and awed by their view of the world.



Lately too, I miss a lot of people in my life, people that make me me. I miss my family a lot. It's been a hurried couple of months filled with beautiful events -- a new marriage in my family, a ski adventure with friends, a thrilling reunion with the boys of my old highschool -- and then suddenly I find myself on a sort of full stop. My project ended and finally I have time to rest and catch up and organize and think. I'm in some sort of archeological dig, taking inventory of things, a full account of life through its artifacts and when I do that, I start to note gaps, excesses, and the missing sticks out like a big gaping hole in the center of my heart. There are many kinds of missing. There are those that a quick fix of a phone call or email can fulfill, a short little shoutout that says I am thinking of you. You people my heart. But there's also a kind of missing that cannot be filled. Here and there I see an old photo of a friend, someone really important to me, someone I cared about a lot, some no longer a part of my life because of many reasons, because of distance, because of time, because of circumstances, because of words exchanged and unsaid. These are the tougher ones to process. It sort of feels like missing a tooth, your tongue goes over the part where you expect them to be and even when your mind understands why they are no longer there, your heart can't quite catch up.

I want you to know I miss you and think of you and when I do, I wish that your life is filled with beauty.

love,
ashima